Something that I wrote 7 years ago and left in my draft folder.
Here it's.
Good reminder.
Happy New Year 2020.
Dear Edwin,
First of all, idiot! Wake up! Why are you hoping for something that you had already knew it not gonna turn up your way!
You of all people should know it, you said it yourself, your 6th sense is very good & your precognitive sense never fail you. Why do you still choose to believe a lousy lie?
You don't hate liars, you said, but hate lousy liars. There you go.
So wake up.
Secondly, you're a smart guy. With IQ of 146 you can do many things! Yet you let your pride & emotion get into you. How much does your pride worth? Really?
michael had his final rehearsal 2 days before his passing at the Staple’s Center in Los Angeles with his dancers for his "This is it!" London concerts.
he also made a 3D short film called "dome project' for his "this is it" concert. which might go on sale some time this year. awesome! something to look forward to ;)
michael had his rehearsal 2 days before his passing at the Staple’s Center in Los Angeles with his dancers for his "This is it!" London concerts that will never take place anymore.
check out how stringent the audition was. thousands of dancers were auditioned for his final act. those dancers were so excited and tearing when they got selected. i bet they must be crying right now too with michael's passing.
MJ's "This is it!" concert would have been the greatest show in decades. damn...
i guess if i have a time machine, michael would be the first person i would save ;)
just before i went to bed this morning, after working through the nights. i saw the news, Michael Jackson is dead, The King of Pop is gone. all my tiredness was gone, my single eyelid eyes that turned double eyelid due to exhaustion turned back to single eyelid instantly...
wtf?! is all i could say for 15min. he was supposed to be have his comeback concernt in july. he was training so hard to stay fit for his upcoming 50 shows. i wonder what went wrong to his training regime or "it was long overdue", since he was rumoured to suffered from skin cancer for a long time.
nonetheless, that's no other King of Pop like Michael.
i grew up with his moves & his music. we shall now remember him as the creator of moonwalking, the ignitor of new music tv with substance/story, his production quality is still unbeatable till to date.
my all-time favorite music video!
my pals & i actually performed a show based on this video at a rotary club annual dinner back in '90... haha... and i was the cute little boy that MJ dance with at the back entrance.
we shall mourn while doing the moonwalking but will always love him for what he has contribute to the entertainment and joy of our life.
Rest in peace, Michael Jackson my King of Pop. We will always remember you.
there is this song that i hear over the radio while i was driving and i couldn't help but sing along everytime. such a catchy tune, such a happy song. and it's a great song to send it out the people we love and a great encouragement song...
such lines like "nothing's gonna stop me but devine intervention", "it's time to win some and to learn some" & "time is short, i'm yours" pretty much my style ;)
let's enjoy it...and sing along will ya? ;)
Well, you done done me and you bet I felt it I tried to be chill but your so hot that I melted I fell right through the cracks, now I'm tryin to get back before the cool done run out I'll be givin it my bestest and nothin's gonna stop me but divine intervention I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some
But I won't hesitate no more, no more, it cannot wait I'm yours
Well open up your mind and see like me open up your plans and damn you're free look into your heart and you'll find love love love love listen to the music of the moment people dance and sing We're just one big family And it's our godforsaken right to be loved loved loved loved loved
So, i won't hesitate no more, no more, it cannot wait i'm sure there's no need to complicate our time is short this is our fate I'm yours
Scooch on over closer, dear And I will nibble your ear
I've been spendin' way too long checkin' my tongue in the mirror and bendin' over backwards just to try to see it clearer But my breath fogged up the glass and so I drew a new face and I laughed I guess what I'd be sayin' is there ain't no better reason to rid yourself of vanities and just go with the seasons it's what we aim to do our name is our virtue
But I won't hesitate no more, no more it cannot wait I'm yours
Well open up your mind and see like me open up your plans and damn you're free look into your heart and you will find that the sky is yours
so please don't, please don't, please don't, there's no need to complicate, Cause our time is short This, this, this is our fate, I'm yours
mamma mia! is coming !! omg... i can't really wait for it. for those who were born in 60s and those that grow up during 70s hippies era or those that had to "endure" your parents records... surely you know what is mamma mia, yes it's ABBA! yes i'm so damn excited about it. this musical movie is gonna be awesome. it's gonna be an awesome chick-flick. yes, i love chick-flick! and i love musical! it is based on the super duper popular broadway/west end musical - mamma mia!. and every song in there is from ABBA... isn't it amazing?! you get to hear "dancing queen", "money money money", "knowing me, knowing you" and of cos "mamma mia" all over again!
i also don't know why i'm a bit head over heel of this super ever green ABBA that i grew up listening to my parents' records... damn. i'm super excited and i immediately downloaded their greatest hits! if you want it, drop me a mail i will send them to you ;)
what can i say? ABBA started a new pop trend in 70s with their catching tunes, and they were hot looking (then). wait, do you know ABBA is actually from Sweden? ;) ABBA were formed by 2 pairs of then husbands & wives with initials of A & B... Björn Ulvaeus & Agnetha Fältskog; Benny Andersson & Anni-Frid Lyngstad. sweet right? haha..
they should start to do a retrospective or make a come back of all the 70s inspired musical, "grease" was great. i wonder when is the musical "mamma mia!" coming to town...
here's the trailer for the new movie mamma mia! from meryl streep & pierce brosnan, yes they sing & dance in there! also, special treats of the originals at the bottom... enjoy ;)
~ trailer 1 ~
~ trailer 2 ~
....and the original songs...woohoo ~~
~ mamma mia ~
~ dancing queen ~
~ give me, give me, give me (a man after midnight) ~
breathe in, breathe out tell me all of your doubts everybody bleeds this way, just the same breathe in, breathe out move on and break down if everyone goes away, i will stay we push and pull and i fall down sometimes and i'm not letting go you hold the other line cause there is a light in your eyes, in your eyes
hold on, hold tight if i'm out of your sight and everything keeps moving on, moving on hold on, hold tight make it through another night in everyday there comes a song with the dawn we push and pull and i fall down sometimes and i'm not letting go you hold the other line cause there is a light in your eyes, in your eyes there is a light in your eyes, in your eyes
breathe in and breathe out breathe in and breathe out breathe in and breathe out breathe in and breathe out
look left, look right to the moon and the night everything under the stars is in your arms
cause there is a light in your eyes, in your eyes there is a light in your eyes, in your eyes there is a light in your eyes, in your eyes
recently, i saw some of my friends broke down. myself was also in a little shamble zone. the challenges were not just about physical but emotionally troubled as well. we all had lost someone who was dear to us, or things, or expectations that we all desired and craved for.
3 of my dear friends lost their grandmother last month, all within 2 weeks. i'm greatly affected by their lost.
i know how it feels exactly, i lost my beloved grandfather in my arms few years back. i was truly helpless, i was looking at the cardio reading, my eyes never moved an inch from the reading and i hoped that i had the supernatural power to keep the meter rising but it didn't. he was calling for me before he was in coma, i was not sure if i was his favorite grandson but he's my favorite grandpa and my hero for he who had went through great deal to become a great man he was before his passing. i know the pain, clearly & dearly, when seeing someone you loved & admired passing slowly in your arms while you can't do anything but just stroking the head, calling his name, watching the heart beat slowly fades to null. i didn't shed one tear at all, I wanted to but i couldn't. i had to be the pillar for my grandma and other family member who were in shock. i was in shocked myself. it took me exactly a year, to recognize that he's finally gone. on his one year anniversary, i finally cried. for the first time, in my life i cried in front of others. but i'm glad, i'm still breathing, that is the only thing i could do, keep breathing.
2 weeks ago, i heard a shocking news, someone that i knew, committed suicide and left behind a son. she was overdosed of pills and her body was found only 3 days later when friends broke into her home. i was never closed to her, but i wish i was. she must be very troubled, lonely & helpless to had driven herself to the edge. she was only 30, young, beautiful, adored by many friends. but i guess, we all had misread her. we took for granted for many things in our lives, i've learned before that we must not take things for granted, we tell & share our thoughts to the one we love as if there's no tomorrow. but for this instance, i guess, we're late. so all we could do is keep breathing, so to able to accomplish more to cover back our lost...
this month, i have heard many problems, and challenges faced by those who i care for. some problems were financially driven; some were the lost of directions in life; some were trapped within the studies, some were betrayed by closed ones; some were dejected for the hard work and didn't get pay off as they expected...while i can't do much for them but i could only try to be a great listener, and hopefully give them as much advises as i see deem fit, i could only be the pillar that they need, or at least, that's what i wish i could do...
sometimes we wish we could just give up, sometimes we wish we could just let go eveyrthing and move to an island, sometimes we wish we were never born, sometimes we wish could turn back the time, but all i wish to tell is, all we can do is keep breathing. as long we're breathing, we can hope, we can make changes. the only person that can bring you down is no one else but you. we have to believe in ourselves. believe is the strongest element we need, perhaps the only one that we need in achieving our dreams. so, all we have to do is keep breathing...
here's one beautiful song for you. "keep breathing" by ingrid michaelson.
keep breathing
the storm is coming but i don't mind. people are dying, i close my blinds.
all that i know is i'm breathing now.
i want to change the world...instead i sleep. i want to believe in more than you and me.
but all that i know is i'm breathing. all i can do is keep breathing. all we can do is keep breathing now.
all that i know is i'm breathing. all I can do is keep breathing. all we can do is keep breathing now.
all we can do is keep breathing all we can do is keep breathing all we can do is keep breathing all we can do is keep breathing. all we can do is keep breathing now.
i'm not the sort of person who falls in and quickly out of love but to you i gave my affection right from the start if i have a lover who loves me how could i break such a heart you can still get my attention right from the start
why do you come here when you know i got troubles enough? why do you call me when you know i cant answer the phone? make me lie when i don't want to and make someone else some kind of unknowing fool you make me stay when i should not are you so strong or is the weakness in me?
why do you come here and pretend to be just passing by? but i need to see you
and I need to hold you, tightly baby
feeling guilty, worried waking from tormented sleep this old love has me bound but the new love cuts deep if I choose now, I lose out cause one of us has to fall i need you and you aren't here
why do you come here when you know i got troubles enough? why do you call me when you know I can't answer the phone? you make me lie when I dont want to and make someone else some kind of unknowing fool. you make me stay when I should not are you so strong or is the weakness in me?
you make me lie when I dont want to and make someone else some kind of unknowing fool you make me stay when I should not are you so strong or is the weakness in me?
why do you come here and pretend to be just passing by when i need to see you and i need hold you, tightly baby
leave me out with the waste this is not what i do it's the wrong kind of place to be thinking of you it's the wrong time for somebody new it's a small crime and i got no excuse and is that alright yeah?
i give my gun away when it's loaded is that alright yeah? if you don't shoot it how am i supposed to hold it? is that alright yeah? i give my gun away when it's loaded is that alright yeah, with you?
leave me out with the waste this is not what i do it's the wrong kind of place to be cheating on you it's the wrong time she's pulling me through it's a small crime and i got no excuse and is that alright yeah?
if i give my gun away when it's loaded is that alright yeah? if you don't shoot it how am i supposed to hold it? is that alright yeah? i give my gun away when it's loaded is that alright? is that alright with you? is that alright yeah?
if i give my gun away when it's loaded is that alright yeah? if you don't shoot it how am i supposed to hold it? is that alright yeah? i give my gun away when it's loaded is that alright? is that alright with you?
and is that alright yeah? is that alright yeah? is that alright yeah? is that alright? is that alright? is that alright with you? no?
i use this space to release, you can call it "pee pee". it's a breathing space for my overly crowded mind. especially, those random & crazy thoughts that i lash out when i'm stressed up or being eccentric. hence, labelled "a schizophrenic mind"...
so read it with a smile & an open heart cos' we shouldn't be too up-tight with everything... ;)
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