Thursday, August 1, 2013

The big leap and curse

A fortune teller once told me when I was 21. I've a "big leap" at 40. And, I might not survive it.

I'm not a fortune teller type of person but I remember this particular one. Cos he said, I will make it big by 30, and I did make it.

So I've been waiting for the "leap" to come. For it, I tend to hold back and try to be a responsible person. I'm afraid to hurt what was & who was to become part of my future.

But he also said, if I made it through, I'll be a prosperous person with abundance of fortune and happiness.

Let's see.... soon, I will need to face it, alone. Live or .......

Only then, I will know if I could continue writing here.



Sunday, July 28, 2013

My secret dreams

It's time to reveal all. No reasons to keep it to myself anymore. My deepest secrets. Since I think nobody actually cares anyway.

First. I've always wanted to achieve something that I venture in. To be an authority figure or simply put, be recognized for my effort or specialty.

So far for my first 2 sectors or first 10 years of my career. I have achieved them all. I've always set my goal for every 5 years. But the 3rd sector hasn't turn out to be as desirable as I wish. I would consider it as my 1st failure in my career. The only consolation is, I did survive the 3rd sector without any serious scratch.

Although, there are many who look me down and deserted me during this period of time too. I don't blame them, after all, not everyone can envision what I see, or share the same level of patience as my perseverance. I did feel dejected at times and feel like giving up. And probably mild depression too.

I started looking for jobs and going to interviews. I got rejected, sometimes got humiliated too. Perhaps, the very first time ever I experience such treatment in job finding in my life. So, everyone has it downturn. This is mine.

But I gotta thanks to those who have stood by me, gave me confidence to continue and helped me to pull through.

One business friend told me this,  in business you can't see results in the first 5 - 7 years.  But at the 10th year, you'll see it. Too long isn't it? Guess, he was trying to tell me perseverance & determination are the only way to success.

Now I'm moving into my 4th sector of my career path. I'm diversifying my career plans as I start to meet more new people. I've expanded my circles of friends to all ages of friends, from those that are almost 20 years younger than me to those older than me by more than 40 years old! From all walks of lives, various types of businesses and expertise, from company owners to retired seniors, from specialist to rising stars. And fortunately, some have become really good friend.

A phenomenon that I could never have envisioned and achieved when I was attached to the renowned international advertising agencies although I held a very senior position.

So, what so secretive about it anyway?  Simple. I'm building my ground. Solidifying my foundation.

No one could see this, but one day I will start make a name again.

This time, it will not be in advertising :)

~ to be continued in part 2 ~